self diagnosis.

Burnout.

In the nursing community [& I suspect, for everyone] it happens about 6 months or so out of school, once you're working full-time in the real world. 

I've noticed lately that I NEVER want to go to work. I didn't realize how weird that was for me until I remembered how, when I first started, I LOVED going to work. Loved it. 

I love my job. If I am going to work, I am in my dream job. I honestly can't complain. I think the combination of it being 6 months in, and it being my first non-student summer, and having to have left camp early because I couldn't get vacation is all crashing together at once.

Today I sat through a 4 hour meeting about pain management, which is important, but I kept thinking how my heart was not there. I kept thinking how I could be hanging out with high school students, and how that is much more important than sitting talking about issues in the nursing community. 

I need to get this off my chest, because I have had a pretty negative attitude about work lately, when I should be grateful for my job. And I am. I just need to push through. I'll get back to a place where I like going to work. I don't ever want to complain about something that is a huge blessing. The Lord can use me in every area, and by having a bad attitude about working, I'm not letting Him use me. 

 

So, friends, I'm pushing through this. I promise to have a more grateful heart & positive attitude toward my job. It really is a blessing to work with sick kids and their families. 

That's all, thanks for sticking with this post, I needed to get that out there. 

On another note, I got a tripod today when I went to check out camera lenses. I can't find anyone that carries Sigma lenses, so I ended up looking through the aisles at Best Buy and found a tripod. I feel excited. This will mean a few more photo adventure posts in the future. Stay tuned :)